Love has never felt as good...
I want to tell you how it all started... cause it was magical & i will always remember it, as i do with my first kiss. We used to talk over the internet for a while before we met on Sunday and i liked him from the start. I just couldn't wait for him to start a conversation and if he didn't, i was the one to type him sth & then we could just go on talking about so many things. He was different. I could just feel it. Because we weren't talkin only about courses and airplane flights, we were talking about us, things we have done in the past, things we liked and then was the time when i discovered that we had a lot in common. I told all my friends about him & that i just couldn't wait to meet him. And it happened. That night, when we have just arrived at uni, after seeing my room, my new home and hardly settling in, we went to the club as it was a free party. We were dancing together, the small group of Romanian ppl & my new flatmates. I was so happy to be there & have fun & dance like crazy, as never before & forget about my past life. There was another one ahead of me that had just started and it seemed promising & i loved it. Then, someone just touched my shoulder i think, turned me around and told me sth, but i didn't understand a word he was saying. Yeah, it was a boy. I stepped backwards just to take a better look at him and what a surprise... i was so happy to recognise him that i jumped into his arms. Although i was pleased to meet his other two friends, i just couldn't take my eyes off him, even after i introduced them to the whole group of ppl i was with and we started dancing again. I was only thinking about him, lookin at him & analysing every single move. At a point i was dancing quite close with another guy and his hands were all over me. I usually wouldn't have minded, if the guy really knew how to bust a move, but this time it wasn't just about me havin a little bit of fun. Now i had the guy i was talking about from the beginning on my mind and i was wondering what would he think of me acting in this way. I don't remember much about what happened later that night, but one thing i definitely do remember. We went out, the four of us to get some fresh air, we talked a bit to get to know each other and i don't know how i ended up just with him, searching for the way back to the club. We eventually went to another place that was in the same building, but on a different floor. He bought me a Vdk blue. I told him that i don't drink vodka, but he said this one is really good & it was indeed. Then we moved to Level 2, the other club. There weren't many ppl in there, so we got the chance to sit on the sofa & talk for... 2 hours?! God, i didn't even realize how fast time passes. He was telling me about how lovely his new house is & to be sincere, i thought he was just showing off. By the way, I had a boyfriend back home and i was trying to keep that in mind & feel different from all the others who were in search for someone for whatever purpose. I knew that i had gone through much more than they had, so nothing could have impressed me now. And yeah, i realized that this boy had sth in mind about me, the way he was talkin, lookin at me, the way he placed his arm on the sofa, as if wanting to wrap me by my shoulder, but no... these kind of silly things just wouldn't work for me. He should have known better. But still, i thought he was a nice guy, after all, why was i looking at him all the time before? Yeah, i could say i was a little bit dissapointed.
Maybe i was just expecting him to behave in a different way. And even if i liked him, i didn't want to push things further. And i wasn't even sure what was he thinkin about. So, that's pretty much what happened in the first day & night of my comin to uni. (Uhh, i forgot sth important! That night, at about 5 a.m i was in one of my friend's room, when i received a message from him, telling me that he really enjoyed that day & that we will see each other in the morning. I spent almost half an hour trying to think of a nice message to send back to him. Then i knew sth was about to go on between the two of us, although i was denying it.)
The next few days, i met the three of them and we walked around the campus, went into town, ate there. I was just discovering this new place & i was really enthusiastic. I loved the surroundings. One thing i noticed was that, everytime i was with them, i sat opposite to him at the table. I couldn't help looking at him, so i guess it was obvious. And another thing that caught my eye and i thought was really funny: while i was looking elsewhere, he was looking at me too. It was a nice eyesight-game. I was really enjoying it.
Then one night, we had a party in another flat, which involved a lot of alcohol and mixed drinks. At a point i realized that i had enough, as i was going dizzy. I kept looking at him drinking and having fun. As ppl refused to drink some more, they got other things to do, such as kissing each other. I was getting sick of all these things, especially when i saw that he was actually doing them. At a point i was kinda bored, searching for some music in the laptop when he came beside me and asked me if i wanted to go out with him to get some fresh air, as we were both kinda dizzy. As soon as we got downstairs, we walked a bit down the alley & we climbed the wall to get to the park. Of course i injured myself, though i couldn't feel anything because of the alcohol in my veins. I only realized what happened the next day, but this doesn't really matter. What matters was that i was swirling like crazy, laughing and saying how beautiful everything was there, when he just stopped me, drew me nearer to him and hugged me. And that moment i felt so relieved, as if i was waiting for it for a long time. I suddenly felt so much calmness inside my heart & i knew i wanted nothing else apart from standing like this in his arms. It must have passed quite some time, cause neither of us wanted to let go of that embrace. But then, i suddenly realized what i was doing & i felt it wasn't the right thing to do because i made a promise back home to my boyfriend. And i told him that, if i was to get into a new relationship, i needed to know that person very well before, cause i didn't want to make the same mistakes over again. I started to think rationally. I told him a lot of things about my relationship back home. He actually did not know that i had a boyfriend, but he only wanted to be with me. I knew he wanted to kiss me & it was not that i didn't want it too, i just imagined a romantic scene. As i was heading for the lake, i was also trying to come to terms with my own conscience. I wasn't even sure i wanted to kiss him. What if i didn't like it? It happened to me some time ago. Ohh, me & my complex thinking! In the meantime, we got to the lake & we were near a thick tree that was right by the lake. I haven't seen that tree ever since that night. But that's another story! Yeah... and he kissed me. Actually we got closer & closer until our lips touched and we melted in a soft, tenderly kiss that soon became very passionate. And i loved it. I simply loved it. I was dizzy & amazed. He told me that we could just be together for a while, get to know each other better & if this doesn't work, then we could just be friends.
But it worked... and it works very well. It's been three months now. I sometimes remember the whole story and i am wondering whether it all happened too fast. I would have liked to go on for a while with that eyesight-game i was talking about at the beginning. But it's not bad either. It was wonderful how things went on between the two of us. Now i can't imagine being without him. He became a part of my life & he is the person i spend most of the time with at uni. We do everything together. I am truly happy.
